More Anxiety

I hear you get a lot of anxiety when you have kids. I had my first bout when I dropped him off at daycare on the first day. That was so painful, I mean physically painful. My stomach was killing me all day. After a couple of days I was almost back to normal. It wasn't long before that feeling came back. After the first three or four days of daycare, Liam started this thing where he would scream bloody murder unless he was being held. There were even a couple of days where he didn't want much to eat and he wouldn't sleep. Poor Jordanna has six other kids that need tending to so you can imagine her joy over Liam's sudden displeasure. I was so afraid that she was going to ask us to find another daycare and even more afraid that there was something wrong with Liam. He is a GOOD baby. I mean it- not just a mother talking here. He is great. He never acts like this at home and I know it's not the way Jordana was treating him. I have never had a bad feeling about her. So what was it? Jordanna's theory was that he was teething. He never showed any signs of discomfort when the first two teeth came in so I had my doubts. He had also taken to waking up at 5:30 every morning. Well, over the weekend we felt two teeth breaking through on the top. I was so happy because I thought, "Hurray. This is the end of dramatic Liam!". I figured these new teeth would re-usher in the old era of a good baby. Liam even wore his "Mr Happy" shirt to school today. Well.... I forgot Liam's bottles at home so I left him at school and ran down the street to get his food. When I got back to Jordanna's, I opened the door to a blood curdling scream that I rarely hear at my house. It was Liam sitting in his highchair. "You see. This is what he does all morning unless I hold him!" I knew he cried, but to witness it was a whole nother ball game. I was at my wit's end. As a mom, you want to be able to provide whatever you can so that your child doesn't experience pain or whatever this was. But all I could do was nothing. I had to get to work. I had to walk out the door knowing that I couldn't fix the problem and that I didn't know what the problem was. On my way to work I wondered if I should quit my job and live a life of destitute. We would be poor, but I would be there for Liam. I called Chris who is convinced he is going through separation anxiety. He is definitely at the age where he only wants me if I am around, which I have to admit is pretty OK with me! About an hour later, I got a text from Jordanna saying that he had a nap after I left and was doing just fine. She's not sure what happened, but now he is playing and doing great. Grrrr.... that kid.... drives me crazy. My theory- everybody is right. I think he was teething and dealing with his mom going back to work and a new place and new people all at the same time. I think he is a strong willed little boy that wants to be heard and this will all slowly go away as he gets used to his new surroundings. The last two days he has woken up at 6:30 which is his old wakeup time. He's got his new teeth and he has been in daycare for 2 weeks now. It will get better. It will get better. It will get better....